first weigh in!

so, it's been...three days? four? since i weighed in previously, and i weighed in this morning.  my period's supposed to start tomorrow so i'm trying to cut myself some slack about being high in general, but boy is this a bummer!  

first weigh in: 153.6

i'm actually just fine with that!  yesterday was my rest day from working out and i went to happy hour with my college roommate, who i LOVE.  we shared an order of edamame and one roll at Ra sushi and it was SO good!  i am not even a traditional sushi fan (give me fried and covered in sauce any day) and it was amazing! 

in other, really annoying news, i ordered the wrong damn maxi dress so when it came yesterday (SUPERfast shipping!) it was too short!  i ordered a small, which, i guess even in the "long" length, isn't actually that long.  so it ended up looking like this:

if mine was blowing around in the wind like that it would show my knees!  i also should have ordered a medium to fully cover my boobs.  oh well, you live, you learn!

besides, as i chose to remind my bf, we all lose/gain weight at different rates [keep in mind he just thinks (or at least pretends to think) i'm crazy about all of this so any discussion like this leads to a glassy look and lots of vague nodding] and that even his favorite celebrities aren't perfect.  i sent him a photo of celebrities without makeup that mocks up "without makeup" vs. "when we 'think' they are without makeup" vs. "with makeup", and he refuses to believe it. men.
 anyway! the point is, when people gave j.simp. a hard time, they had no idea poor kk was around the corner:

talk about thinspiration!  if it can happen to someone who's paid to look good, what hope do the rest of us have? 

diet time!!! here's my yummy lunch:

italian herb flat out wrap: 130cal

tyson's southwest seasoned chicken: 110cal

lettuce/microgreens/pea shoots/grapes: 15cal

zesty honey mustard: 15cal

super filling delicious healthy fresh lunch: 270 calories!

xx

a

maxi dress obsession and victoria's secret binge

so, as per usual, i've been shopping.  i've also been thinking about my weight - par for the course.  unfortunately, i think i've finally reached the opposite side of the dreaded fence: my body confidence is too high!  i've spent too much time reading pro-body love articles, loving on my thighs and thinking that my curves are kim kardashian like, not just kind of squishy and not really proportionate.  the fact is, i have thin limbs and a not particularly large frame.  i could definitely support being 20 pounds thinner, but my goal is currently to lose 14 pounds.  i had a very indulgent week last week and weighed in at a whopping 155.6.  I haven't been that high since late last year (when i met my boyfriend) which doesn't help - he met me at 158 and liked me then, so he's not pulling a scott disick to kourtney kardashian:

Scott: "Last time around you tried to watch what you were eating, after you had Mason... at least you were losing weight."
Kourtney: "You are so crazy. I'm trying to do it the healthy way."
Scott: "Just do it faster...If I would have fell in love with you a couple of pounds overweight, this would be my ideal weight, but I fell in love with you when you were super skinny."

 fortunately, my boyfriend is no scott disick.  unfortunately, the below still holds true and while my weight is yucky to me, if i'm honest to myself it's my size that bothers me more.  i'm a big fan of showing off skin, but i've felt jigglier and yuckier since i was at my comfortable weight of 142.  besides, if this isn't initiative, what is???:

on what i'd like to think is an unrelated note, i've been super into maxi-dresses this year.  i used to think they were dumb-why wear that much fabric? now i love them, probably because as my boobs have "grown" it's become less cute and more hoochie mama to wear a tiny top and short shorts!  i'm super excited for this gorgeous dress to come in the mail - i ordered a medium in the longer, 39" hem length so i'll let you know if it's a good length for 5'8 curvy girls ;)

victoria's secret maxi bra top dress, $69.50 sale: $55.60! i picked carbon; i think it will look so pretty with a tan!

lest i hide out in maxi dresses all summer and avoid my weight loss goals, i also picked up an adorable bikini - I ordered the top in a Large and the bottom in a Medium; i'll post to update how it fits: 

Victoria's Secret bikini: $33 and $16

i'll take a before pic sometime this week after a weigh in and then i'll make sure to update my blog as i continue on my never-ending weight loss journey!

xx,

a

HOME FROM DEPLOYMENT!

so after seven. entire. months. [literally. we left in mid september] of this:

i got to see my amazing and adorable family, who met me in Hawaii for less than forty-eight hours of shopping (of course, right?  i'll show you pics when i wear them, y'all will die...strapless, ruffles, mini, nautical...i got them all!! I EVEN GOT A ROMPER!), dining and drinking.  

amaze, right?  ya...except that, tomorrow morning, i get to see THIS:

 san diego!

i know, y'all are just as excited as i am!  finally, no more boring posts about deployment, right?

and hopefully no more embarassing online shopping posts.  speaking of which, my debit card and i may or may not have had a last hurrah on the vickie's website...i will soon be the proud owner of this adorable dress:

in navy, bright melon, beach blue, diamond blue, tropical turquoise, white, black and tropical pink!

they were only $29 each...so economical, right?  and inevitably i'll return a couple if they're too close in color (those blues all looked pretty similar)...haha those colors look hideous in the text format!  

and i wanted to thank sweet College Prepster...i won her Kiel James Patrick giveaway, and y'all know how i love me some KJP!

and thank you to Desperately Seeking Seersucker, who gave me the awesome love your blog award:

Rules: post 10 things you love and share with 10 people!

i love...

1. sparkles

2. dresses (all types, although i'm totes partial to sundresses)

3. flirting

4. shimmer (as opposed to sparkles, obviously)

5. meeting new people

6. cocktails!

7. heels

8. being happy

9. compliments (giving and getting)

10. giveaways!! [especially winning them, but that's neither here nor there]
ten of my MANY happy blog girlies:
in this wonderful life, her southern charm, college prepster, smart and sassy with sprinkles, dreams do come true, fashion meets food, mrs. in training, shopaholic in alabama, summer in newport, and think classy

...sooo, speaking of giveaways, you HAVE to check out shopaholic in alabama...she's doing ten days of mother's day giveaways, featuring: 

A Lilly Pulitzer Large Agenda

Kiel James Patrick

At the Blue Barn 

Lilly Pulitzer Headbands

Social Climbers

PeaceLoveLipgloss

i'm sorry i've been such a poor commenter recently - as i always complain, right before we pull into a port is one of my busiest times! i can't wait to catch up with y'all, and don't forget to enter those giveaways!  i can't wait to update you guys with the embaaaaarassing debauchery i manage to put myself through during my first few days back in San Diego!